Hahah I do think the love-my-favorite is common. Ok, I know Maya did it... haha. I certainly want people to love my favorite when I have on (like Heero... everyone needs to realize Heero is awesome... thankfully, Duo already does). Anyway, I was overstating-- T'Pring does dump him, but I mean 'broken' in the sense of Spock breaking his own preconceptions. Those sorts of things can be traumatic, especially for Spock (which is why the whole TMP drama occurred, basically, but then he did get over it after the whole dying business).
I think it's specifically my Draco that's the problem, but like... any reasoning I can come up with in my head for why he'd leave Ginny ended up being unacceptable for his emotional health if I swallow JKR characterization 100%. A lot of people are like, 'but no, this isn't Harry's *real* feelings' whenever they feel Ginny's unrealistic or whatever, but I wasn't doing that. So he's just moving towards not obsessing over the Voldemort stuff anymore, accepting Draco as bygones, becoming an Auror and being family with Ron-- and then, to take Ginny away, suddenly I'd be taking this whole happiness away from him. The only reason that this would work for me is if Harry is messed up by war, can't allow himself to have good things, doesn't really buy the whole OBHWF future, etc. Why doesn't he buy it? For him not to buy it anymore, his innocence would have to be broken. In a way, this was always a foundation of most H/D fics-- note just how many involve him distancing himself from Hermione & Ron, considering Draco to be someone who understands his 'true' nature, etc. Basically, I was no longer someone who was ok with Draco being the only person who understood Harry's 'true' nature-- because this would involve breaking something good, breaking his heart to remake it in Draco's image, or something. H/D shippers justify this by saying stuff like the whole OBHWF thing was just wool being pulled over Harry's eyes, he was *naive*, he needed to see the truth to grow as a person, he needed to see Draco (same thing), and Ron/Hermione/his childhood dream of family was holding him back. But then I wasn't really as on-board with that being healthy as I was before after canon was so hardcore 'this is what makes Harry happy'. It became even more obviously a breaking.
Yeah, I generally don't care who tops with K/S either... but I'm a *bit* in favor of bottom!Spock 'cause it makes it more likely Jim isn't like ~~letting go~~ in the bedroom 'cause I'm like, STOP STEALING SPOCK'S SHTICK >___>;; haha. No, I mean, everyone should let go in the bedroom, but my favorite Jim (esp. in Reboot) is like, pretty casual and guy-ish about sex (in contrast to Spock, who is, to put it mildly, uptight). I'm ok when Jim is like, 'ok, whatever, topping, bottoming, fine', but not when he's like, 'omg actually I really luuurve to bottom', 'cause it's just... whut? Why? And also I don't like the skewed dynamic where Spock becomes the one sweeping Jim off his feet, putting on this whole romantic shtick, wooing and so on. In some kind of ideal universe, Spock would be like, awkward and semi-robotic until he snaps and is like, wild animal (neither tend to presage great sex).
There's this one fic where TOS Spock goes into Pon Farr post-rebirth (I think) and Jim just volunteers (I mean, I think he's available) an*suffers* through the serious pain and like, extreme intensity of 24/7 sex (his poor ass! so little lube! etc). I really liked that a lot, haha. Smooth Spock, this ain't (see, that's Jim's shtick). And then *finally* Jim trains him not to like, leave bruises and finish in 2 minutes *or* go on for 2 hours without ever breaking a sweat, so to speak. And then one can make a mind-meld and emotional rapport the real deciding factor in terms of success. So I guess I still like mild-melding more than sex? In fact, I think back in the days when I read commercial gen as a teenager, I related to mild-melds as if they were sex, hahahahah.
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Date: 2011-11-06 04:18 am (UTC)I think it's specifically my Draco that's the problem, but like... any reasoning I can come up with in my head for why he'd leave Ginny ended up being unacceptable for his emotional health if I swallow JKR characterization 100%. A lot of people are like, 'but no, this isn't Harry's *real* feelings' whenever they feel Ginny's unrealistic or whatever, but I wasn't doing that. So he's just moving towards not obsessing over the Voldemort stuff anymore, accepting Draco as bygones, becoming an Auror and being family with Ron-- and then, to take Ginny away, suddenly I'd be taking this whole happiness away from him. The only reason that this would work for me is if Harry is messed up by war, can't allow himself to have good things, doesn't really buy the whole OBHWF future, etc. Why doesn't he buy it? For him not to buy it anymore, his innocence would have to be broken. In a way, this was always a foundation of most H/D fics-- note just how many involve him distancing himself from Hermione & Ron, considering Draco to be someone who understands his 'true' nature, etc. Basically, I was no longer someone who was ok with Draco being the only person who understood Harry's 'true' nature-- because this would involve breaking something good, breaking his heart to remake it in Draco's image, or something. H/D shippers justify this by saying stuff like the whole OBHWF thing was just wool being pulled over Harry's eyes, he was *naive*, he needed to see the truth to grow as a person, he needed to see Draco (same thing), and Ron/Hermione/his childhood dream of family was holding him back. But then I wasn't really as on-board with that being healthy as I was before after canon was so hardcore 'this is what makes Harry happy'. It became even more obviously a breaking.
Yeah, I generally don't care who tops with K/S either... but I'm a *bit* in favor of bottom!Spock 'cause it makes it more likely Jim isn't like ~~letting go~~ in the bedroom 'cause I'm like, STOP STEALING SPOCK'S SHTICK >___>;; haha. No, I mean, everyone should let go in the bedroom, but my favorite Jim (esp. in Reboot) is like, pretty casual and guy-ish about sex (in contrast to Spock, who is, to put it mildly, uptight). I'm ok when Jim is like, 'ok, whatever, topping, bottoming, fine', but not when he's like, 'omg actually I really luuurve to bottom', 'cause it's just... whut? Why? And also I don't like the skewed dynamic where Spock becomes the one sweeping Jim off his feet, putting on this whole romantic shtick, wooing and so on. In some kind of ideal universe, Spock would be like, awkward and semi-robotic until he snaps and is like, wild animal (neither tend to presage great sex).
There's this one fic where TOS Spock goes into
Pon Farr post-rebirth (I think) and Jim just volunteers (I mean, I think he's available) an*suffers* through the serious pain and like, extreme intensity of 24/7 sex (his poor ass! so little lube! etc). I really liked that a lot, haha. Smooth Spock, this ain't (see, that's Jim's shtick). And then *finally* Jim trains him not to like, leave bruises and finish in 2 minutes *or* go on for 2 hours without ever breaking a sweat, so to speak. And then one can make a mind-meld and emotional rapport the real deciding factor in terms of success. So I guess I still like mild-melding more than sex? In fact, I think back in the days when I read commercial gen as a teenager, I related to mild-melds as if they were sex, hahahahah.